The sparks

Everyone feel them in their heads when they are writing. When you hear the song that fits what you're writing. When you write the scene just as you pictured it in your head. A good feeling.

I just hope it comes back.

the endings

Since I feel like I'm not doing well on the new projects I've been working on (or trying), I'm re-reading finished things and the two projects that are finished fail at the same thing: the end.
Maybe on the middle of the story I get really into it, so when it comes to the ending, it's hard to finish it. I don't really know. I think it is probably that.
It's fun that the endings were my problem in that moment and now the begginings are, which is worst, because if you have a bad ending, you just read all over again and you re-write it. Instead, if it is the beggining, you can't even start developing the project, which is more frustrating than sitting down until you re-write an end.
I just hope that the begginings are easy for me again, and to finally end something right.

that thing the teacher taught you first on chemistry

I want to quote:

"The energy is not created or destroyed, it can only be transformed."

Yeah, it might sound familiar to you. Chemistry class, while you were bored. Or maybe transformers.

The thing is, lately I remembered that quote. And you can apply it into writing, if you change it a little:

You destroy to transform. 

That's all you've got to know about writing. You just don't go and write and bum, is amazing. No, it isn't. 
You destroy the draft, you destroy the better version of that draft until you transform it into what you want.

Keep going. 

And don't forget to destroy that draft, to convert it in the history that you want to tell.

write is not a race

I read that a few days ago and now I'm thinking about it.
I often think in a bunch of stuff and I'm always jumping from here to there, because I'm running with those stuff... And it shouldn't be in that way.
School is happening. My last year of it is happening. And I feel like I don't have time. I'm tired all the time, and that makes me sleep every time I have free time, and if I try to do something about the stuff I want to work on, suddenly, I can't even write right a simple word.
It's frustrating.
And my mind keeps repeating "you've got things to do"
Sometimes I want to switch it off.

The other day I had a dream. It was me. I was trying to escape from my own head, literally. I was swimming out of  this opened head and I couldn't get out of it. I felt trapped.

But on Wednesday, I dreamed about it again and this time I did it. I got out of it. And I remember that the first deep breath I took, was like no other.

I'm just hoping I can do this again. I'm hoping I can make it. I'm not letting my mind take control over me, but I won't lose it either.

The english class and the gossip thing

Being a teenager isn't easy. And less when you have to go at school.

I get it, we all need it to be "somebody" on the society, but isn't it fucked up the fact that we spend almost our whole day there, instead of discovering who we are?

The worst thing is: the persons with you live that experience. You can be lucky and have good pals. We all have good classmates there.

I've got one. The other people is nice. And the other is just... Stupid. That's the word.

The gossip thing is: Why do you care about something that you aren't even sure is true? You're going in senior year. You're not a fresh anymore. (Until next year, I guess)

And yeah, it started like a against-system-of education thing and I finished on how stupid my classmates are. That's what schools provokes on my mind.

And the english class: We had this homework about making-up a history about a topic that the miss gave us. Heaven.

But you know what I liked the most? Seeing my friend so interested in the story she was making, and the fact that she actually enjoyed doing it. That makes me happy.

A happily first post

It's amazing when you finally come up with something a little creative for an url and it is... AVAIBLE!

It should happen often -- the part where I am creative with urls, and the part when they're avaibles.

The url is the reason why I decided to do the blog (because I finally found one), with the chicken thing (that I'll tell later) and the fact that I always read things like:

"You should keep a journal!"

I'm doing it, folks. I'm just hoping it last and doing it right.